In cooperation with a frivolous society guided with an artificial system that avoids conflicts I was conclusively sinking to a cathartic recognition. I realized the conditions of the environment as well as I am not only one-sided aside what is comfortably accepted. Then my existential arrangement could continue more effectively between the margins. Not unilaterally anymore I learn to balance among these circumstances. The reconsideration of these dual factors maintained the guidance of my mental freedom. Related task with that is to weaken self-hypocrisy what paralyses the growth of a constructive personality. On the base I was saturated with overshadowed feelings and thoughts holding me back from the evolution of my authentic self. So I put more emphasis on how to unpack, understand and embrace them.