universal-traditional ancient-contemporary modernity-technophobia victim-perpetrator material-mental care-neglect alienation-integration chaos-order illusion-reality face-avoid dependent-uncontrolled alteration-stagnation exploration-ignorance instability-balance failure-accomplishment ruin-construction body-thought excavation-filling grief-relief enthusiasm-apathy punishment-reward suffer-comfort misleading-accurate measured-addictive theories-spontaneity now-time artificial-organic privacy-publicity tranquility-fear accept-deny escape-maintenance surrender-conflict evil-peaceful solitude-codependency hypocrite-authentic fact-preconception conventional-divergent unpleasant-aesthetic pollution-purification hate-love beauty-distortion identified-unknown uncertainty-sureness imply-release affiliation-disunion While technology slowly dominates human life, the individual still can make decisions in order for the stability of the state of mind and soul. To set in focus the proportions of emotional and intellectual intelligence can be a protective move. Because often one of them can stand in the way of the other if they are not in the right balance. The development of my autonomous personality was partly paralyzed by the expectations of my surroundings. For this reason, I have created an apparent character in my childhood for self-defense. Living and expressing my true emotions hardly unfolded. At one point I first had to admit that I was lost in a misleading and fear-driven community, for the sake of finally finding myself. Consequently, this realisation led to a better way of living my life. Before I had rather been avoiding conflicts for convenience, but nowadays I am ready to confront more easily. Furthermore, I try to modify the control mechanism of negative automatic thoughts. Those nourish escaping methods for situations which should be rather experienced than not, and so I want to strengthen the flow experience.